so this guy comes up to my register at work today
and he’s holding a wheelbarrow tire
and hes like “im really waiting for someone to ask me how i am today, just so i can say I’m kinda… tired.”
so a police officer came into rona today
and bought a wheelbarrow tire
for his retired police dog to play with/chew on
well my dad just ditched our fathers day plans for tomorrow
to hang out with the step-monsters family
first he ‘forgets hes a father’ and now he ditches me
sometimes i wonder why i even try
so for some reason i have this really unnatural and weird fear of being touched by people
like i honestly have no clue why but it really freaks me out when people touch me at all
like i was at a concert tonight and just having people around me and touching me freaked me out so much
last time i was at a concert with one of my friends some guy tried to touch my arm and help me move in front of him and i almost smacked him and my friend yelled at him and i felt really bad after it but oh my gosh
why brain/body must you be so weird
and everyone thinks im like this frigid bitch that thinks shes so much better than everyone else but like sorry i would change it if i could, its not like i enjoy freaking out every time someone tries to have any physical contact?
Sometimes, you can try so hard to fit into someones life, and you’re never going to to be good enough, no matter how hard you try.
It might hurt to think that you’re not going to be a part of their life in the way that you want, but you’re going to find someone eventually - whether it’s to be a friend, lover, parental figure, or just someone that you can’t quite label - and they’re going to want you to be in their life. You’re going to fit, and it’s going to be awesome.
Until you find those people, don’t be too hard on yourself, okay? You deserve to find people that love you and cherish you and are thankful to have you in their life. You just have to find each other - it might take some looking, but please don’t change who you are just because you don’t fit into someones life - because if they can’t make room for you just the way that you are, then they don’t deserve you.